The long way here.
I was not handed a spiritual life.
It isn't in my lineage. No one sat me down and gave me the map. Whatever I know, I had to go and find — and I found most of it the hard way, through a thousand wrong turns that each, eventually, taught me something that held.
The seeking
I never trusted that the deepest things lived in temples or churches. I went looking for them where they felt closest to the surface — in forests, in deserts, on mountains, in that quiet, half-forgotten corner of a city everyone else walks past. I lived on several continents. For long stretches I lived out of a backpack and a tent. I wasn't collecting experiences; I was looking for what was true, and I was willing to be uncomfortable to find it.
The deepening
Some of that search asked everything of me. I gave myself to a forty-day initiation to meet the thing I most wanted to know directly. I fasted for thirty days to face the fears I'd been carrying my whole life and let them go.
What I met in those passages, I can only describe in my own words. I went looking for God and found something I couldn't have named beforehand — not a figure on a throne, but a presence. An eternal, infinite field of love that seems to bind all things together, carried in the very breath we share. And here is the part almost no one tells you: it isn't solemn. It has an enormous, generous sense of humor. It is playful. It is wise. Once I felt it, I stopped being able to take my own heaviness so seriously.
What I do with it
I've trained deeply — across many traditions, more than I'd bother to list — but training was never the point. The point was to take what I'd lived and make it useful to someone else. Today I help people find the patterns that have quietly been running them, and move them — through breath, presence, and a kind of listening I've spent two decades learning to trust.
I take this work seriously. I try not to take myself too seriously, because I've learned we're all far harder on ourselves than we ever needed to be — and because the field I'm pointing you toward is laughing more than we think.
Why this exists
I believe the more clearly you can see yourself, the more fully you can live — and that a life lived from that depth is simply a better one. Everything I make, the readings and the sessions both, is just a way of handing you back the part of the picture that was always yours.